It's a new day, it's a new me...........................

I do not know the first thing about healthy living; I do not know the first thing about love either. But I have recently found myself right there, I am trying out healthy living – sounds cliché but who’s judging? And recently my heart informed my brain that we were in love.

In healthy eating, I have altogether abandoned wheat and a good thing too!!! I have actually lost an inch sitting on my behind, doing nothing, well apart from staying away from wheat and most wheat-based products. No, I have not gone cold-turkey off wheat LOL I still give in to my Cape Good cookies every so often but generally speaking, yeah I am kind of not eating wheat.

I’ve walked this road too many times to count yet I do not seem to find a middle ground that allows me to complacently keep on a narrow path that does not send me off the railing and on to the junk-eating sad life or the fanaticism dieting side. Mostly, I suspect, because when I did consciously choose to take the path, I sought shortcuts. This time round, it’s gonna be different because I do not want skinny, I want STRONG!! I am tired of having to look to other people who are stronger than me to have to do the heavy lifting for me…………….

A strong me will also be able to handle the heavy lifting that comes with loving someone else. I read a book! Yeah! I read a book ha ha ha ha! If you know me then you know that I’ve read plenty of books too. But this one, this one is different. Different in that for the first time ever, I do not feel like I need to apologize for choosing to put myself first J. Don’t get me wrong, God comes before all else, by putting myself first, I mean I am taking care of me first before I get involved in other people’s business.

I told him, this person my heart has informed my brain that I now love. I told him how I felt. I have been told that a girl does not put her heart forward, that a woman does not tell how she feels…………….. I don’t know about you. Maybe you are a good actor, but I am the worst of them all. One look at my face and you don’t even need to ask me anything because you will be so fortunate, or otherwise, depending on the circumstance to find the truth plastered all over my beautiful face.

So you see, it’s easier for me to admit the way I feel because it is already in every action, every word, every kiss, every laugh……….. It also makes me stronger, makes me confident too. The worst they could probably do is walk away, which would hurt terribly I admit. But then again, did love not grow in my heart? Do I not get to experience the most amazing, most beautiful emotion God put it us? I think telling someone I love them is totally worth the heart break I risk …………. It is way better that wondering what if and never moving forward with my life when the relationship is all but water under the bridge:-* :-*

Here's to more new beginnings .............