I do not know the first thing about healthy living; I do not
know the first thing about love either. But I have recently found myself right
there, I am trying out healthy living – sounds cliché but who’s judging? And
recently my heart informed my brain that we were in love.
In healthy eating, I have altogether abandoned wheat and a
good thing too!!! I have actually lost an inch sitting on my behind, doing
nothing, well apart from staying away from wheat and most wheat-based products.
No, I have not gone cold-turkey off wheat LOL I still give in to my Cape Good
cookies every so often but generally speaking, yeah I am kind of not eating
wheat.
I’ve walked this road too many times to count yet I do not
seem to find a middle ground that allows me to complacently keep on a narrow
path that does not send me off the railing and on to the junk-eating sad life
or the fanaticism dieting side. Mostly, I suspect, because when I did
consciously choose to take the path, I sought shortcuts. This time round, it’s
gonna be different because I do not want skinny, I want STRONG!! I am tired of
having to look to other people who are stronger than me to have to do the heavy
lifting for me…………….
A strong me will also be able to handle the heavy lifting
that comes with loving someone else. I read a book! Yeah! I read a book ha ha
ha ha! If you know me then you know that I’ve read plenty of books too. But
this one, this one is different. Different in that for the first time ever, I do
not feel like I need to apologize for choosing to put myself first J. Don’t get me wrong,
God comes before all else, by putting myself first, I mean I am taking care of
me first before I get involved in other people’s business.
I told him, this person my heart has informed my brain that
I now love. I told him how I felt. I have been told that a girl does not put
her heart forward, that a woman does not tell how she feels…………….. I don’t know
about you. Maybe you are a good actor, but I am the worst of them all. One look
at my face and you don’t even need to ask me anything because you will be so
fortunate, or otherwise, depending on the circumstance to find the truth
plastered all over my beautiful face.
So you see, it’s easier for me to admit the way I feel
because it is already in every action, every word, every kiss, every laugh………..
It also makes me stronger, makes me confident too. The worst they could
probably do is walk away, which would hurt terribly I admit. But then again,
did love not grow in my heart? Do I not get to experience the most amazing,
most beautiful emotion God put it us? I think telling someone I love them is
totally worth the heart break I risk …………. It is way better that wondering what
if and never moving forward with my life when the relationship is all but water
under the bridge:-* :-*
Here's to more new beginnings .............