It's a new day, it's a new me...........................

I do not know the first thing about healthy living; I do not know the first thing about love either. But I have recently found myself right there, I am trying out healthy living – sounds cliché but who’s judging? And recently my heart informed my brain that we were in love.

In healthy eating, I have altogether abandoned wheat and a good thing too!!! I have actually lost an inch sitting on my behind, doing nothing, well apart from staying away from wheat and most wheat-based products. No, I have not gone cold-turkey off wheat LOL I still give in to my Cape Good cookies every so often but generally speaking, yeah I am kind of not eating wheat.

I’ve walked this road too many times to count yet I do not seem to find a middle ground that allows me to complacently keep on a narrow path that does not send me off the railing and on to the junk-eating sad life or the fanaticism dieting side. Mostly, I suspect, because when I did consciously choose to take the path, I sought shortcuts. This time round, it’s gonna be different because I do not want skinny, I want STRONG!! I am tired of having to look to other people who are stronger than me to have to do the heavy lifting for me…………….

A strong me will also be able to handle the heavy lifting that comes with loving someone else. I read a book! Yeah! I read a book ha ha ha ha! If you know me then you know that I’ve read plenty of books too. But this one, this one is different. Different in that for the first time ever, I do not feel like I need to apologize for choosing to put myself first J. Don’t get me wrong, God comes before all else, by putting myself first, I mean I am taking care of me first before I get involved in other people’s business.

I told him, this person my heart has informed my brain that I now love. I told him how I felt. I have been told that a girl does not put her heart forward, that a woman does not tell how she feels…………….. I don’t know about you. Maybe you are a good actor, but I am the worst of them all. One look at my face and you don’t even need to ask me anything because you will be so fortunate, or otherwise, depending on the circumstance to find the truth plastered all over my beautiful face.

So you see, it’s easier for me to admit the way I feel because it is already in every action, every word, every kiss, every laugh……….. It also makes me stronger, makes me confident too. The worst they could probably do is walk away, which would hurt terribly I admit. But then again, did love not grow in my heart? Do I not get to experience the most amazing, most beautiful emotion God put it us? I think telling someone I love them is totally worth the heart break I risk …………. It is way better that wondering what if and never moving forward with my life when the relationship is all but water under the bridge:-* :-*

Here's to more new beginnings ............. 

                

Pieces of her . . . . . .

And I looked through the telescope, only this time I was looking back at a girl I used to know. She is not with us anymore :-) for you see, she was an innocent girl. She was a bit sad, she was lost. She was . . . . . . . . . . and now, every so often bits of her float by. She was a kindred spirit :-) insightful too. But she had these huge walls built around her and would do just about anything to keep these walls up.

She is long gone, where she abounds I do not know. Sometimes I am happy she tore some of the walls down, sometimes I want her to pull the walls up again, reinforce them. Sometimes I wish she had never been. She was the product of circumstances, terrible circumstances. Her walls were all she knew to keep herself safe. I empathize with her, I feel her pain. She needs to get over the past to move forward, she's been hiding out instead of dealing with it.

So help me God for she has to come back out, without the walls this time. Without fear, without a care in the world, other than God's word. That is the only burden I would like for her to bear. She has borne enough.

Thought For Life

Question is, are there certain things we can do to live a happy and satisfying life? The 20 points listed in this post are probably the ones that are common sense yet, considering all i have read about happiness.

20 Keys To A Happy Life by Author Unknown

1. Compliment 3 people everyday!
2. Watch a sunrise
3. Be the first to say "hello"
4. Treat everyone as you want to be treated
5. Live beneath your means
6. Forget the Joneses
7. Never give up on anybody - miracles happen!
8. Remember someone's name
9. Be kinder than you have to be
10. Wish not for things, but for wisdom and courage
11. Be tough-minded, but tender hearted
12. Don't forget that a person's greatest emotional need is to feel appreciated
13. Keep your promises
14. Leave everything better than you found it
15. Show cheerfulness even when you don't feel it
16. Remember that winners do what losers don't want to do
17. Remember that overnight success usually takes 15 years
18. When you arrive at your job in the morning, let the first thing you say brighten everyone's day
19. Don't rain on other people's parades
20. Don't waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them!

I Want to be Happy

I read, after watching the series and the phrase never caught on, well that was till I was roaming around the internet that I came across this, by Lucas Scott on ‘One Tree Hill’ he said; “Happiness comes in many forms -- in the company of good friends, in the feeling you get when you make someone else's dream come true, or in the promise of hope renewed. It's okay to let yourself be happy because you never know how fleeting that happiness might be”.

I cannot remember the last time I let myself be happy. Without worrying about time, others, how much, how long? There’s always something nagging, some reason why I just can’t let go and just be. But all I want is to be happy. Problem I have been worrying left right and centre that I cannot remember what it feels like to relax.
If it’s the last thing I do, I’ll remember how to.

I just hope I will not be alone and that it will not be too late. On the same show, someone else said, ‘Many people die with music still in them. Why it that so? Too often, it’s because they are always getting ready to live. Before they know it, time’s run out’

The last thing I would want is for time to run out on me. I just want to be happy. I'm the only thing in my way, huh? Before it's too late, i'm off on a be-happy tour. You're welcome to tag along.

You are simply special ...............

I never understood why you said i love you the first time you did,
I wondered why you would say something like that to me.

I was seriously suspicious when you tried so hard to get close to me,
I was more worried when you got me to talk to you.

I'm still surprised at how forgiving and understanding you are,
I must be crazy, i tell you about the crushes i have too!

You asked me to describe you in one word, you are SPECIAL.
Special enough to have etched yourself in my heart,
Special enough to share my crazy thoughts with,
Special enough for me to dare love.

Special to be who you are, to me, to the your family, to your friends, to your colleagues'
A gift to know, a joy to have around and a favourite to love.

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)

i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

"Unwritten"

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten